Getting Into Bed With Defense Tech: An NDA

Do you know what your Twitter mutual is doing at 2am in someone else's bed? A disclosure of disclosures and agreements broken

DEPARTMENT OF DIGNITY

NON-DISCLOSURE AGREEMENT

I, [REDACTED], an individual official, employee, or subcontractor of [TECH COMPANY REDACTED], intending to be legally rendered in words am now inextricably karmically bound by my reprehensible behavior, hereby consent to the terms in this Agreement in consideration of my being granted conditional access to certain information and experiences, specified below, that were owned by, produced by, or in the possession of the undersigned (”The Author”).

Initials: / Section 1: Security Indoctrination (SI)

I hereby acknowledge that I received access to The Author beginning at approximately 6:30pm on January 1, 2026. I understand that such access was granted in good faith and that the United States Government, my employer, my parents and presumable upbringing, my extended social network online and offline (colloquially known as Twitter mutuals) and basic human decency expected me to handle this access responsibly.

I further acknowledge that I violated a separate, actual federal Non-Disclosure Agreement during this encounter by disclosing sensitive information regarding [REDACTED] while the undersigned was [REDACTED]. I understand that this disclosure was my choice and my liability.

Initials: / Section 2: Categories of Access Granted

Category I: Preliminary Access: I was granted access to genuine openness, intellectual engagement, and the undersigned’s time and attention over a period of weeks following initial contact via direct message initiated by myself.

Category II: Escalated Privileges: I was granted conditional access to [LEVEL 2 CLEARANCE REDACTED]. I acknowledge that I utilized these privileges.

Category III: Terms & Conditions: I pursued the undersigned. I established limitations citing the age differential. The undersigned accepted these limitations and proposed a physical arrangement for the duration of her time in the Bay area. I agreed and I received benefits. I then rejected the arrangement I had already entered while [REDACTED]. I then confessed while [REDACTED] that I had intentionally engaged in bad faith though the undersigned had been reasonable at every juncture.

Category IV: Post-Incident Accommodation: I was granted permission to remain on premises overnight despite the events of the preceding hours. When the undersigned moved away from me physically to go sleep on the couch, I followed her and asked if she wanted me to leave at around 3-4am. The undersigned, weary with toil to haste thee to her bed, understood that any possible response to this would signal immense hostility to me, therefore setting up an even more contentious situation following my behavior.

Initials: /Section 3: Terms of Engagement Violated

I understand and agree that I failed to comply with the following standards:

(a) I received benefits to the sum of plenty.

(b) I escalated and then withdrew at a moment specifically calculated (consciously or not) to maximize confusion and humiliation.

(c) I cited “travel” and “seriousness” as reasons for reneging, despite having already accepted benefits that contradicted these frameworks.

(d) I demeaned the agreement despite having readily agreed with it and in fact started the process of it that evening, permitting the undersigned to initiate [REDACTED], thereby ensuring maximum impact of my reneging via timing while benefitting from [REDACTED] at my convenience instead of mutually as agreed.

(e) I issued an apology without sufficient underlying assets (remorse, understanding, change)

(f) I have previously engaged in casual physical relationships with other women including writers (so they could explicitly write about me, per my own admission) and women who remain friends, thereby demonstrating that my stated “principles” are applied selectively.

(g) I will break a federal NDA to justify my behavior’s reasoning but not my own arbitrary frameworks. I understand this reflects poorly on my risk assessment capabilities.

(h) I will disrespect and degrade women the moment it serves me while claiming to be precocious at knowing better and seriousness.

Initials: / Section 3.5: Documentation

At approximately [TIME REDACTED], following my reneging on terms I had already materially benefited from, I produced a notebook and began journaling sincerely while the undersigned lay beside me in distress. As the undersigned was confused and processing what had just occurred, I continued writing in bed. I acknowledge that this act demonstrated I viewed the undersigned as material for my own narrative. I acknowledge this means I viewed the undersigned as material also rather than as a human being acutely experiencing distress caused by me and the tonal whiplash caused by my behavior and choices in degrading and disrespecting her.

Initials: / Section 4: Apology Non-Acceptance

I hereby acknowledge that I issued an apology on the night in question. I further acknowledge that the undersigned responded “thank you for apologizing.”

I understand and agree to the following interpretation:

(a) “Thank you” constituted acknowledgment of receipt.

(b) “Thank you” did not constitute acceptance, forgiveness, or resolution.

(c) An apology without underlying assets (remorse, understanding, behavioral change) is a fraudulent instrument.

(d) The undersigned is under no obligation to process my guilt on my behalf. My actions henceforth from that moment when [REDACTED] constitute mere attempts at assuaging my own failure as a human being to soothe my ego’s need to address it.

(e) The transaction remains open with an unbalanced ledger.

Initials: / Section 5: Confidentiality Maintained By The Undersigned

The undersigned agrees, despite having no obligation to do so, to maintain confidentiality regarding:

(a) My identity

(b) My employer

(c) The federal NDA I violated

(d) The specific acts I received

(e) The timeline of my contradictory behavior

This confidentiality is extended not because I deserve it, but because the undersigned has integrity. I acknowledge we are not the same.

Initials: / Section 6: What I Do Not Get

I understand that the following have been permanently revoked:

Closure: I do not get to feel like this is resolved.

Absolution: I cannot tell myself I apologized and it’s fine now. It’s not. It never will be.

The Author: I do not get the satisfaction of wasting the author’s time further.

A Villain: She did not call me names, so I cannot cast her as the crazy one.

A Dialogue: This is not an invitation to respond because no response is sufficient. This is a verdict reflecting my behavior and actions as all they reflect on my failure at being a human being to begin with.

Pride: I will not be proud of myself in the future. I will not be proud of myself ever, really, if I continue to move forward like this

Initials: / Section 7: Consequences

I understand that if I violate these terms with another woman, particularly one younger or more fragile than the author, such violation may result in:

(a) Actual damage to another person, damage which could harm them grievously for a long time, if not a lifetime, if they do not understand this has nothing to do with them but everything to do with me being a man lacking honor

(b) The realization that I am the issue, I am the pattern, I am not a person who made one mistake, but a person who repeatedly lied and withheld the truth at every opportunity to enjoy material benefits.

(c) The memory of this Agreement and the Author’s anger at having her time wasted, much less the issue of degradation and disrespect that my entitled behavior signals.

(d) The slow understanding that the undersigned was right about everything

I understand that these consequences are not predictions but prophecies given the inexorable nature of my duplicitous behavior in full embrace of it.

Initials: / Section 8: Duration

Unless and until I develop the capacity for honest, respectful engagement with women, I understand that all conditions and obligations imposed upon me by this Agreement apply during the time that I am granted access to any future intimate situation, and at all times thereafter.

This Agreement remains in effect until I am proud of myself.

The undersigned estimates this will possibly take years if at all ever possible.

Initials: / Section 9: Severability

Each provision of this Agreement is severable. If a court, my mother, or future therapist should find any provision of this Agreement to be unenforceable, all other provisions shall remain in full force and effect.

Initials: / Section 10: Representation & Warranties

I represent and warrant that I had the emotional capacity to enter into intimate situations. I acknowledge that this representation was false.

I have read this Agreement carefully. My questions have not been answered because I don’t have the framework to ask the right ones.

Appendix A - Outstanding Inquiries

The following questions remain unanswered and are submitted for the record:

1. What entitled you?

2. Who do you think you are?

3. Why couldn’t you just be honest?

4. What differentiator exists between [REDACTED] and [REDACTED] that justified your behavior?

5. If this differentiator matters, why did you lie?

6. What part of me did you identify as possible for exploitation and what does it say about you?

7. Is this a pattern? Who taught you this?

8. Is everything about you performative?

9. What did you write in that notebook? Did documenting this make you feel like you were the protagonist?

10. Are you proud of yourself?

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(Recipient will acknowledge the category or categories of information to which he was granted access by placing his initials in front of the applicable category or categories.)